Archive for November 7th, 2004


observing the large brick wall in my immediate future

November 7, 2004

Okay here is the run down on the next two weeks and the reasons I will not be happy/sleeping/normal for the next little while:

Thursday Nov 11
3-4 page History and Faith Paper
3-5 page House of Spirits Response paper

Tuesday Nov 16
12-15 page Integrative Paper
8-10 page Research Paper
3-4 page Review of Secondary Literature
10-15 minute Presentation

Total for the next 9 days: 29-38 pages

So goodbye dear somewhat sane world, welcome to my craziness………..sigh


quitin’ time

November 7, 2004

These past few days have not exactly been great ones for me, just pretty much a low right now. I hate not being a happy cheerful person, I mean I am sometimes. But others (like right now) I just can’t seem to get a good outlook on the world. Part of the problem is that whenever I am feeling low I also feel guilty for not being happy and content with all the amazing blessings I have. Why do I waste my time being melancholy when I have so many opportunities and resources and options for me life?

Gosh darn it and why do I write depressed blogs, not good Abby!

Okay anyways I will now attempt to be at least somewhat interesting and less down. Today I got about 3 hours of reading for my term paper due in a week out of the way. The paper deals with issues of pre-marital sex within Christian ethics. Actually a pretty fascinating topic, so far I found two interesting books that make strong cases for not condemning it, which I actually found rather surprising. Mainly because growing up Mennonite I received a clear sense of sex as only appropriate within marriage. Although in reading some of the arguments it has caused me to bring up some of my own reasons for why I think pre-marital sex is wrong. Fascinating for me, considering I often end up being on more of the side arguing why it is okay in certain situations. It should be a fun paper to write. Speaking of sex though I am gonna go listen to Keith Graber Miller preach tomorrow morning at College Mennonite Church on sexuality. Should be quite interesting!

Oh and I went to the barn dance tonight. It was fun, but very much a nostalgic sort of thing. Barn dance was so much fun in high school, such a big deal, and it still is, but not the same…..sigh. I guess all good things must end. Oh but my moment of hope was when as we were riding along on the hay ride. I was laying there feeling sort of blue and looking up at a gorgeous field of stars and then I saw a really long shooting star that was just beautiful. I always seem to be the one who just misses seeing it, but not this time. So with that moment, I will leave my blog for the night. Rest well.