Today I did something a little unusual for me, and maybe even a little brave, I got myself out of situation that wasn’t healthy for me. This situation was being the romantic advice giver to an ex and by an ex I really mean the ex. The problem being in all this is that he is also a close friend, a friend I plan on traveling with this summer. Also giving advice and listening is a big part of how I relate to my friends, it is one of the main things I feel that I can give to my friends. But in this situation listening and giving advice was really painful for me. So I got up my nerve today and emailed him to let him know that I couldn’t fulfill that role anymore, which he seemed to accept, but then he asked me why. So now I am sitting here trying to find a way to put into words what it is about our relationship that makes it so difficult for me to be his adviser. Should I tell him it is because there are parts of me (although very small in size) that aren’t completely over him? Or should I tell him that I just don’t…
Ugh, that dilemma scratches the surface of a story that is way to long to try to tell here, so I think I will leave it there. I will attempt to be more interesting in the morning, after I get some sleep.
